But for me it's here to stay

What you did a month ago

Might as well have happened today

It sticks in my brain

and float as it might

it never leaves the sight of my negative mind

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I chew my skin and sip my blood

the open cuts and scars

are pictures of what you've done to me inside

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Don't say that it's not true

it's just the glib response

practice what you preach

and mean what you say before you say it

Tell the truth if you want to help

It's all you can do to help save me

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Every inhaled breath

each sacred thought in my mind

drips of you and what you've said

and what you've done

What would you do if I was dying in your arms?

Would you cry honest tears,

or laugh in victory?

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I can't win the fight

so why even try?

They'll always kick me in the brain

and call me silent names

You might say you love me

but do you really mean it?

Or is it just a joke you chose to play?

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We may not have identical lives

But it doesn't mean I can't feel pain

I've been going through just as much as you

So why do I feel so inadequate?

Why do I feel like I need to work up to your non-exsitent standards

that I've set for you

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All written by me. Most written yesterday,and the last one this afternoon.

Diary of the day: clauren See past entry :)

backwards and forwards

break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003