Ashley's Apathy--food--result on Friday, Sept. 19, 2003 @ 6:06 p.m.
I told my friend Ashley about my anorexia,bulimia,cutting,and that I almost commit suicide. She just blew it all off and even said "so?" when I mentioned the suicide. She IS the Queen of Apathy like the shirt that we made together for her says. She doesn't care about how I'm feeling or anything! Or what I do...I just don't matter.
Today I've been eating alot. I keep telling myself that I'm saving up strength for a new fast so I won't have to back out after the first day because of being light- headed and all. But...I still feel horrible. I should just wait till dinner and then not eat much after that. I'm starting my next fast on monday or tuesday.
We're moving next weekend...I just can't belive it! We still have so much to pack too...we better get a move on! No pun intended.
Well, I did convince my mom in letting me give up dairy just now(and she will too). RESULT! Well, that, clauren's note, and talking to Kelly are probably the only good things about today really...well, there are some more I guess. But oh well.
I want to try writing poetry again in here tomorrow...for some reason I think I'll have a great inspiration...
Diary of the day: xevilbunnix Hey! She's going to put the unpopular kids in the yearbook! Deff. worth a look.
backwards and forwards
break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003