I go in and out of feeling loved. Especially by someone that I won't name. One minute, I think that this person doesn't love me like they say they do-and then I feel like I'm so important to them and not just another piece of work in thier life. I need to go with one or the other.

I found out that my friend Jo Ann had oral sex with a guy in New Jersey. She's 13. She had oral sex with a guy she barely knew. She says she felt like she was high, didn't remember much about it, and that it just "happened". This guy as also been bringing in tons of women to his basement to french kiss. I think she might have been drugged.

Kelly isn't feeling to great either. For some reason I feel like I'm competeing with her to see who's got it the worst. I hate feeling like that but I can't help it. It's the only that I was sure that I had. That my life and problems were worse than anyone elses. Obviously that was very immature of me. Obviously that's not true. Obviously we alot of us could be in the running for having the worst life.

I'm so confused about everything. I just want out. I just want to end it all. I think I will. Very soon.

diary of the day: xevilbunnix kellly

backwards and forwards

break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003