It's not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I think I can make it through the year. But it will still be hard grade wise and all.

I have still been feeling empty. I have to search through myself to feel something. It's like I've lost the flashlight that lights the way. I'm going in to find it...I need to. I need to feel real and I need to feel something. I need to feel my depression. I need to know that it still exsists and I'm not crazy and dreaming up a false life.

I'm going to dig deeper inside myself.

Diary of the day: dramakittyw We're both trying to find ourselves in one way or another. Plus she's making a good resolution!

backwards and forwards

break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003