I know there are several things wrong with me...but what is causing that? I feel like I'm on a never-ending quest to have my problems be worse than everyone elses and frankly, it makes me sick. I don't want to be like that...like this. I don't want to feel like that I have to be as bad off as they are to be appreciated. Usually I try to put myself into their shoes when I hear something like that, but lately I just can't move my feet at all. They are stuck in my brain thinking about how I need to be worse-off than others.

Hmm...maybe this is because I was never belived that I had anything wrong with me, or people didn't notice anything wrong before? That's probably it...they never saw my pain inside. This happens to alot of other people too, but it's getting less common. Everyone always said how they thought I was happy. Happy? You sure don't notice anything do you?

I better get dianosed in all the things I know I am.

diary of the day: lyra85 Welcome home!! And yes...we missed you :)

backwards and forwards

break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003