I finally got to talk to my friend today...it turns out it's not as bad as I was thinking, but it's not happy bunny land either. I'll write about that later I guess...when I know more about what I'm talking about.

I'm learning that I can handle psychical pain....I used to think (well..know) that I couldn't handle that AND emotional pain. But know if I think of it as release, which it actually is now, I don't mind it at all. As long as it's not to where it's unbearable it's actually welcome.

I can't belive I'm going to start school again soon. Summer has just gone by so fast...and frankly it's been the worst I've ever had. This whole YEAR has gone by fast. Just like 2002. And pretty soon I'll be able to drive. It can't be too hard, all dad does is curse at other cars, complain about the lanes and speed limits and speed bumps and the gas and the.....well everything. I'm so glad I don't have to do that when I drive.

When I can feel my emotions better, I'll write.

Diary of the day: volvo-buddy I'm glad she got a good score on my test, and again she is so sweet...for more check back to my last entry.

backwards and forwards

break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003