We took her to the vet yesterday because she still didn't have her other baby(or babies). The veternanrian (or however you spell it) was very nice. But Rainbow was so scared she was shaking and clinging to everything for dear life. He did feel another baby,so they did an x-ray. The baby wasn't really devolped,all he could really see was the ribs,and by then he should have seen the whole skeleton. He sould they didn't calciumalize or something like that. He also told us (my dad and I) that she was hit with a pellet (pillet?) gun one time (she's a ferral). We have to get her spayed SOON or else she'll get an infection and it takes alot of money to repair,and more money to spay her when she has the infection. Tomorrow we are getting her spayed and chipped. Bet she's going to LOVE that ^_~

Now,fun stuff.

Past entries. Well,I know I didn't talk much that month,and didn't even bring it up until around December,but my uncle Blake died in October. That was my second (first full) month on diaryland. He died from overdose on pills and alchoal. It was an accident.

Other subjects came up as well. ONe main one(possibly the subject of my diary) was my depressed feelings and school. Almost everyday I go to school I tell some of it. Maybe to remember-to share-I don't know,but I do.

I haven't really talked about it in here,although I've been meaning to. One of the things I wonder about the most is the meaning(a.k.a. purpose)of my life. I belive everyone has one,or else why come? I don't think I've done anything really important-but I hope too. But of course right now my goal in life is to become an actress and writer (write movies and books). But I also want to help the world or something like that in some way. But right now there is no oppurtunity.

Ughish crap-I feel like water is running out of my ear...ew,gross. lol

Sorry about that.

Oh,a quick note to clauren,your making me say fab. You said it so much I'm saying it now. And I think coolbeans is going to soon...^_~

I can't belive I've seen this box and written in it 100 times! It's just wierd. I probably won't feel like I've done it until I hit 104 or 105 entries. But I'm glad to be in the triple didgets. And saiyanstar is catching up too! I just wish she'd leave a comment about me....-_-,I feel worthless

Well. Alot's been said. Kinda. I'll be going from the box right now,so it won't be destroyed,but I'll come see you soon. THIS IS NOT GOODBYE! Your too wonderful to say good-bye to :)

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Diary of the day: clauren and saiyanstar. You two have both been reminding me of this entry and I appreciate it. It's good to have friends like you :)

backwards and forwards

break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003