Kevin G. He hates sitting by me,literally. When I had to switch seats with Sara,and the day after I sat back down in Sara's old seat,he said that I wasn't surpossed to sit there any more because it was for one day. I could have just passed this off but-

The next time when we were arranged to sit by each other in Reading (same class as above),he told Mrs.Parretta that I already sat by me,and wanted to move....twice.

And in regular class he said that we should 'part our ways' when we were sitting by each other (i don't blame him though,because all year before that he ALWAYS sat in front of me. RIGHT in front of me,lol).

Why do people hate me so much?

What's wrong with me?

Can somebody tell me?!

I am making some 'friends'...maybe. Alyssa spends some time with me and lets me be around with her at break. She's so nice to me and doesn't care that I don't talk much. BTW,I HATE the way the real me doesn't come out in school. The real me is someone who goofs around alot and likes to laugh. That doesn't come out when I'm in front of more than 3 people in school.

And then there's Kristen. Here's a conversation we had-sorry if it takes up alot of room....please don't get mad at me

Kristen: How's life treatin' ya?

Me: bad

Kristen: How? (or something like that)

Me: I want to kill myself

Kristen: ( a little more serious now) Why?

Me: Because I hate myself and my life

Kristen: (looking dead serious and sad,somewhat surprised) That's bad.

me: why?

Kristen: because your my friend.

That last comment and her facial expressions sent me on a happy trail. But of course,since it was lunch and they were talking about how Edilene (who I'm not fond of) never eats lunch,even though she gets it. She explained how she ate just not the...blah blah blah. Her words aren't worth repeating.

So in case your wondering I'm on a 'diet' if you can call it that. If +anybody knew they'd say it was unhealthy. I hope my parents don't find my records. I'd have to explain about the eating disorders and all the other crap that I've been worrying about. Then it would go straight to the president. Ugh

bye-from STupid Melanie (sponge22bob)

diary of the day: wieghted-up

About a girl with anorexia-totally rockin' ^_^

backwards and forwards

break - Saturday, Oct. 25, 2003
More Quizzes! - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
reply - Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
A Dream Within a Dream - Friday, Oct. 17, 2003
Mom doesn't know what they mean - Sunday, Oct. 12, 2003